Life can get busy, complicated, messy, boring, or even out of control at times. But atleast I still have my free will right? I mean, I make a decision, it sucks, and there's nothing I can do but face the consequences of that decision....yet it's okay because it was my decision and I am enough of a woman to stand up to the consequences of my actions. I'm fine with that. I'm okay with life, even though it can suck royally at times. As far as I know, it's better than the alternative. But at any rate, there is still some assemblance of control in the life of an individual when they assume the responsibility for their actions. But is modern, capitalistic, overly commercialized society okay with that? NO FUCKIN WAY!! People take responsiblity for their own stupidity? Maybe back before the drug companies took over the world. Now everything is a disease or disorder. ADD, codependancy...BITE MY ASS CORPORATE AMERICA!!! All I want is for you money grubbing swine to leave me with my free will and some assemblage of human rights. But no Sara, that's not right. Don't be in denial...you can't make bad, horrible, no good decisions simply because of a momentary lack in judgement, because it seemed fun at the time, because you're random, or because you're just a horrible person. No, that can't be it at all...you need therapy...that's right, we don't even have good drugs that we'll prescibe so that you can refuse to take them...I guess that's enough of a rant for now...you guys get it...I don't want a disorder. I don't want to let my family have that much of an affect to say that the horrible way in which I was raised affected me at all. I survived, and as far as I know i'm doing okay. So I have some trust issues, boundary issues, I assume responsibility for things unneccesarily, and I'm incapable of a healthy relationship. That doesn't mean shit. I'm 18 years old for cryin out loud. But I suppose there are some of you sayin, Sara you're just in denial. I hope that you get hit by a handicapped bus in a freak indoor accident which you don't see coming and hurts like hell but amazingly leaves no permanent or long term damage. That's all i'm sayin.

Sara